Forgiveness. Not the same as Forgetness. There is "Forgive and Forget" for some, but I may forgive and NOT forget.
There's this guy I know. He decided to knock me down and shove me around the school grounds when I was about 15.
Later in life, although he is older than me, we started hanging out in the same party circles. I had actually forgoten the whole inncident, I actually liked the guy later on, but he never treated me like I was his peer. I did'nt care that much.
But I wondered why and then I began to remember what had happened, you see, the good ol boy I was hangin with that day gave this dude the finger and called him a ginny or something like that, It was'nt me, I was innocent, but the guy decided to attack me and shove me around, not even letting me stand up. The reason, because the good ol boy who I was hangin with that day had a brother who had all the good pot in town and so , instead of going to the sorce of the insult, he took it out on me.
Stupid huh? Well, I had forgoten it and did'nt care anymore when we turned out to have many mutual friends years later, but he himself never forgot it and so he could'nt fully bond with me. To this day I don't care, all was forgiven and almost forgotten, but he did'nt let me forget I would have forgotten but He never forgave himself, no big deal. It was stupid young teenage crap.
I being a non pot smoker, have quite a mememory, People who've done me wrong have their own bad karma they put on themselves, I know who they are and It frees me to forgive, but i never forget.
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This is almost like the movie Butterfly Affect. thanks
i can see those dark parties in NJ. Don't know why it's dark, maybe because parties usually happen at night.
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